Wednesday, November 24, 2010

I have so much to be thankful for...

There has been so much "stuff" going on in my life lately. Between loosing my job in August, the never ending custody process we are attending to, the normal challenges of being a parent, trying to maintain a happy healthy relationship with my husband while I am going to school, homework and internship woes - it is easy to go to a place where I feel encumbered. Overwhelmed is an understatement today.

Today I turn 35. My morning started with a grouchy husband who was running late to work, me rushing around the house trying to prepare for our journey to my parents for the holiday weekend, finding a brand new container of ice cream in the refrigerator instead of the freezer and a crying spell in the middle of the kitchen. Not exactly what I had hoped my birthday would be like. But as trudged to the bus bundled up with tear streaked cheeks enjoying the quietness in the frigid fall air, I realized how blessed I am. This year has brought me many wonderful gifts.

My first full year of marriage - what a gift! It wasn't perfect, what ever that means, but it was a good foundation for a long life together. We have worked really hard to create space to grow as individuals and as a couple. It's really quite lovely.

I've had more time with my stepson. I have felt so blessed to have him in my life. I have formed a safe and loving relationship with him. Don't get me wrong, being a parent is hard work and being a stepparent brings its own set of challenges. But I really do love him and enjoy watching him grow into an even more wonderful human-being.

I completed my first year of graduate school. It has been a challenge balancing class, homework and internship with the other aspects of my life, but I did it. I have also learned a lot about myself and who I want to be as a therapist. I have had some great experiences and learning opportunities and over all wouldn't trade any of it.

My friends continue to be amazing. I have been so blessed with wonderful people in my life. This year we have welcomed new babies, become homeowners, watched relationships bloom - grow - and end, together. We have held each other during times of sadness and loss, as well as whooped and hollered at our successes. Through the magic of Facebook, I have reconnected with long lost friends and through the School of Social Work, kickball and new jobs have made new life long friends.

There aren't words to express how wonderful my family has been. Long phone calls with my mom, dad, brother, sister-in-law and grams have helped sustain me when I wasn't sure what to do. They always have the right words to prop me up, ground me and help me move along in my journey. I thank the universe daily to come from such smart, funny, compassionate people.

So yeah, I have many many people and opportunities to be thankful for this year. I hope you all know who you are and feel my love and appreciation of you. And if 35 is half as good as 34 was, I will be doing alright for sure.